I just realized...

....how much I like to Photoshop. As usual, instead of working on my paper I decided to edit pictures I have stored on my computer. I can't believe how cool some of the pictures turned out. This one is my favorite. I call it:




"A moment in space"



Editing pictures is so much fun and writing papers is so not. I "should" get back to my paper now...booooh :[

As I Procrastinate...

I have been thinking a lot about doing new things this summer. I remember MT saying in class that we all should give new things a try (I'm sure she didn't say the word "should" since that's a big no-no in sociology). I love that she said this because for the past three weeks I have been contemplating a new activity for the summer. I REALLY want to do something I have never done before. Or, I want to do MANY things that I have never done before. Along with finding a job (anyone know of a place that's hiring??), I want to just get out and have fun! I am so sick of doing the same things over and over again. I want to go hiking, camping, fishing, take a knitting class, swimming (I can swim, but I don't have the actual technique down), or maybe even a new sport.

Any suggestions? I would definitely prefer something FREE or close to it...I'm on a budget like everyone else :-)

Start of June :)

Cant wait for June already!!! finals next week, then graduation, along with a bunch of grad parties and finally taking my so much needed vacation to mexico. It seems like June will be packed with lots of excitement, but the only thing i cant stop thinking about is having second thoughts about entering the masters program, and the biggest issue is how will i pay. it sucks

Working hard during Memorial Day weekend!

Wow! I just finished a ten page paper. I worked on it from yesterday morning to just now. I had some sleep of course. Guess what? I still have another ten page paper to write but it is not due till next week. My goal is to finish it tomorrow because I have class Wednesday. Then I will be done with all of my papers. This is how I spent Memorial weekend! How fun!

In between my breaks I had some time to check out the website Professor Tabor suggested, www.parentrevolution.org. Pretty empowering information. There is new law in California, Parent trigger, which gives parents the power to transform or change the school their child is attending, either by forcing the school district a find a new principle or by demanding an entire new staff. I think this new law is a great opportunity for parents to give their children a quality education. Before reading about this new law, I was determined to send my son to private school. My son is two years old and has a few years to go before he starts school. I do not mean to sound cliche but time goes by so fast, before I know it, my son will be starting kindergarten. So I am doing my research now.

Now that I have knowledge of this new law, I am considering sending my son to public school. Mainly because I know that as parent I have control over my son's education and because our public school system needs a make over and I want to be part of that. Not to mention the five hundred dollars a month I will be saving! I could put that money towards my son's college fund.

hey everyone I hope all is well, we are almost finished with this term. I'm looking forward to this summer, I have some remodeling to do in my home, and my kids deserve some outdoor quality time with me, I can't wait, I wish you all a safe summer, have fun, and be safe

State Stereotypes

This gave me a pretty good laugh. I hope everyone gets a chance to look at it and have a laugh too :-)



Texas-"Everything's bigger...even our morons" HA!!! I should be offended since I was born there but hey..it's funny!!

Last Paper

wow! is it just me or has MT become strict on this last paper???

RoyalWedding

This picture reminded me of one of our past circles, were we talked about the royal wedding and how we have become so consumed with a false fantasy of love through disney movies.

waiting for superman wow

Such a good documentary i'm glad we got to watch it in class.. so sad to see one of the most "powerful" countries lacking a good public education.. we are falling behind as a country while other countries are moving forward with children at the top in math and science.. hopefully there is a change soon for our future generations..

Something enlighting for a change

32 hours...

That was the "official time" to write my paper, and I also spent hours of thinking about it. Now, I have to wait to see available tutor for proof of reading. This can take another 3 to 5 hours or even worst, don't have a chance to see tutor because there are many students who just like me. I don't understand why I don't think it is a bad experience. What you think?

5/31, Tuesday 11:40am, I Missed Class =( ???

I missed our soc 301 TThu 11:40am class today due to getting into an accident yesterday while going to work and i have to deal with all the repercussions today. Can somebody please please feel me in on what I missed and what is due Thursday? I would really appreciate it, Thanks! -

why change

I haven't really posted my own blogs because I don't feel that confident in putting my ideas out there for everyone to see them. Instead, this quarter i just tended to read other peoples post and comment on some of them. I realize that a lot of females have relationship problems and I hope this current scenario that I'm experiencing might help some females actually analyze their relationships or the way they see them. My sister in law is current staying at my place because she left her boyfriend. This is already the 4 time she has left him for the same reasons. According to her, he has several girls and he constantly physically and mentally abuses her. I have gone several times to help her out after he has injured her, but she continues to go back with him. She called the police once and put him a restriction order but after a few days she went back with him. I advised her several times to just start over with someone else or to just concentrate on her future but she cannot see her future without him. Ever since she left him, she continue to call him and to go out with him. She is always saying that he is going to change but his not. I know it might sound cruel but is the true. If he hasn't the last 4 times she has left him what makes her think that his going to change this time. He will continue to hurt her physically and mentally and thats not going to stop until someone puts a stop to him. So for all of you girls that believe that guys are going to change, as a guy ill tell you that more than likely its not going to happen. So if your in an abusive relationship the best advise i can give you is to just let him go and move on. Their are a lot of other guys that are going to treat you better. Always think about yourself first because if you don't than the abuse will continue and it can reach to a point where someone can get kill!

Woman Power

What do you guys think about this?? I agree with her!

help!!!!!!! final paper

hey people hope everyone had a great long weekend!!! im so lost for the final paper dont no what to write about or what the topic is!!

Citing MT

Does anyone know how to cite a lecture? I really want to quote something MT said during lecture...

A Quote from a Respectable Professor @ CSULA

Yeheudi Webster "Argue the argument, Not the arguer" --> personal attacks reflect how people have not let go of their nonrational tendencies. Biblical, Aristotle, Rousseau, Marxist and Satyr (BARMS) a reason why the foundation of our educational system has failed over the past centuries onto students rational thinking and new inventions.

Japanese men stepping to the plate

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-13598607  to clean up what the tsunami did in their country.  These are pensioners: guys 65-75 years old.

AHHH!!

I love that my post is going after the one about anger... I am having such a hard time with a group member from one of my other classes. He has not contributed to our project at all and he has such an attitude about doing any of the work. As much as a I like to work with other people on things, I hate being paired with someone who doesn't care!!! I feel like screaming right now as I am writing his part of the paper!!! AHHHH!!

ANGER

Anger will never disappear so long as thoughts of resentment are cherished in the mind. Anger will disappear just as soon as thoughts of resentment are forgotten.


AND REMEMBER, "IT IS NEVER TO LATE TO GIVE UP YOUR PREJUDICES." ~ Henry David Thoreau

my goodness - emotion

with emotion, it tends to be a good idea to ... sleep on it prior to acting if you can.  at least take  a walk around the block.  it will be interesting to see who is who - everyone is welcome to come to any other class in addition to his or her own to see the fellow bloggers.  Good night - and sleep well.  Remember what is important.  If you like this video, you can also find Part II.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Not everyone will agree with everything someone else says but never forget to respect those differences and disagree RESPECTFULLY.




(Just thought I'd lighten the mood "just a little bit")


:-)

Memorial Weekend is over. Now time for finals :D

Wow what a weekend!

I was in vegas since thursday night and drove back today. Man was traffic insane, it took us 8 hours. But it was worth it. I feel soooo relaxed. but now I need 2 study and get all my papers done.

2 more weeks guys :)

As we drove back from vegas all of my friends took their naps but I was on my phone online reading our blogs. I am going to miss this :(

I hope everyone else had an awesome weekend. Now lets finish our final paper and get ready for finals.

Good Luck everyone.

-Here is a pic I took from our room.

Reflections in one quarter

Am not much of a blogger and am not much of expressing my emotions and what I think. But this quarter has planted a seed that am not sure what form it will take when it blooms. On one side am getting all the sociology I need for my major and I want to agree and say that social forces are huge contributors to an individuals actions but there's one side that is looking at a new concept. A concept that puts the responsibility on each individual. I spent a great deal questioning why I got cheated on and blaming others for things in the past but in reality everyone makes their own decisions and I have nothing to do with it. I can't control anyone therefore I can't blame anyone for hurting me. I decide what I allow to affect me. It is tough but am taking responsibility and really learning to interpret this new concept and putting it to practice. The writing assignments have been so amazing for my reflections . . has anyone had a quarter full of reflections on life?

New Roomate

Recently, I made a choice to start my own foundation. Due to this decision, I don't have guarantee paychecks coming in. Come next week, I will be moving in with my buddy and his girlfriend until I start to raise money for my own project. I've been feeling really depressed lately due to me moving in with my friend. I've been on my own since I was 15 years old. I hope this depression goes away quick.

I AM GLAD, and THANKS PROFESSOR TABOR

*I am glad I have a LIFE, Family, Friends, Acquaintances, and People to meet throughout the world to share experiences that make us happy, and not have to be in front of a computer for many hours blogging for memorial day. THANKS MOM for inviting me to the house and having the BOMB ASS POZOLE, and CEVICHE you made for our families! I am also glad for finishing all of my papers for my Finals, but most importantly Thanks Professor Tabor for letting us blog.

*As I have said in our circles: "Everyone has a Duality, everyone needs a duality; a mix of good and evil in order to balance themselves out in their lives and get in contact with their human nature and environment that surrounds them." That's our Mexica way of living. Not everyone is going to understand this philosophical way of living because it is not intended for everyone. For not many people are tuned in with themselves, others and environment and instead are in tuned with hate. Our chief leader once said: "We are all born with perfect harmony and balance with nature. The choices we make throughout our lifetime affects this balance usually creating disharmony in our lives. It is a person's own responsibility to create that balance because if you are too good, you become a poor judge of character and will be easily taken advantage of, which is not healthy behavior. Likewise if you are too bad, you become evil and destructive" THIS IS A MEXICA'S REALITY and it is just ONE SMALL PORTION of our Belief system. Again not everyone will understand it because they have different views and different beliefs, which is respectable, but the hate towards my beliefs and ideas needs to stop already with page after page blogs replies and use of vulgarity(you know who you are and do not need to reply to this).

*I would like to invite you Prof T. to one of our ceremonies with a tribe we are affiliated with in Riverside, CA. We do sweats and maybe you might be interested in writing a paper or who knows open yourself up to participating in it. We do not believe in getting rid of the old and bringing the new, we instead embrace all the generations and everyone's point of views and accept them as they are because everyone has different ways of learning, different experiences, and most of all different eyes to the soul and environments. I am very appreciative because this blog just shows people's different perspectives on completely opposite spectrums. Thanks. instead of AHO like Natives Americans say, I say in my native language OMETEO-TL.

Friend BBQ

Just finished having an amazing BBQ with my friends at the dorms

So worth five minutes of your time...

The Silver Age....how we take care of elders

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HbSRLjlGGXk

All is fair in love and war...or not

In love and seeing a guy that is in a relationship already. Wow, I never thought I would be in this situation. But reading Mayela's post promted me to write about this dating disaster going on in my life. And I should truly know better because I caught my ex with another girl in our apartment! Life is crazy! I used to beat myself up and say how could he!? It is so easy to judge and say we would never do such things, but one cannot truly know what they would do in a situation until that situation comes up.. Im not trying to break him and her up. I feel like if it is me he wants then he can make that choice. Me and him share a special connection. Yes, he is taken. But we are all only human, and it is (for the most part) not humanly possible to care for only one person through out one's life. We have a system that has created something called manogmamy. It is just not a natural thing we are born with.

Meeting the man of my dreams...and then meeting his beautiful girlfriend..isn't it ironic? dont you think?

This is a controversal post. But this is real life. This type of ish happens everyday. People just dont talk about it because it is such taboo. Please share your thoughts..

Fall For Your Type

So in the beginning of the quarter I began talking to this guy. We got along great and he made me feel all mushy inside, and then he dropped a bomb on me. He told me he was moving about 30 mins away because the place where he was staying at, he was staying with his ex, they had broken up for about a month ago after 3 years and not only that but she was 15 years older than him. My first thought was to hang up and run the other way but my instinct told me to give it some time. After a resent fight he had gotten into with his ex’s 20-year-old daughter he punched a wall and broke his hand, therefore he couldn’t work. So now the charming, funny, cute guy that made my heart dropped every time he texted me was 30 minutes away with a broken hand, no car and with more baggage then if he was going away for a year. Everyone told me to run the other way, even my brain, but something inside of me even bigger convinced me to stay. He reassured me it was over with his ex and repeated how he need it a friend. I looked at him and saw a wounded person, and I couldn’t stand seeing my middle school friend suffering alone. He said he was over her but not over the betrayal and I could understand that because I was going through a similar situation with my ex of 4 years but I too was wounded. Everything was fine for a few weeks, we did have our pull and push moments because we were both afraid to jump into something and were afraid to get hurt but I would talk to him when he was bored out of his mind because he could not work and even drove the 30 mins to go see him about once a week. I was slowly putting my guard down and allowed myself to get comfortable with him and the idea that he was going to be around, and this is when out of nowhere everything changed. He began to be really short with be in our texts and stopped being as sweet. Eventually the texts stopped all together and I did not understand where the change came from. I realized it was for the best and did not try to pursue it but just let it die on its own but now I can’t help but feel a little used. I was there for him while he was in a rut and now that everything is coming together with him going back to work and his life getting back on track he dropped me like nothing. I felt that he could have at least given me a heads up. Many reasons of why he stopped calling or lost interest come to mind but at the end of the day they do not really matter. Although I am a little disappointed( I won’t allow myself to feel more than a little disappointed) I am a little mad at myself for not listening to my reason, to my logic and listen to that gut feeling that wanted to keep feeling butterflies whenever I saw his number popping up on my phone screen. Why do we continue to do something when we know it’s not good for us? I wanted to give this guy a chance because my heart told me to so should I stop listening to my heart from now on? Dating can be so confusing sometimes!

accident..

Today my fiancè and I were bored so we decided to go to the Santa Anita Mall.. When we weree about to exit the ramp to get the 210 freeway three cars behind us.. a horrible car accident happend... as I looked through the side mirror I saw a pick up truck flip.. I felt as if my whole body stopped.. I thought about it and before the accident happen my fiancè for some reason did not let a honda get to our lane, and after 10 sec the accident happend.. I thought to myself, if my fiancè had let that car go in our lane we probably would of got hit too because we would of had to slowed down to let the other car go infront of us.. I remeber saying as the truck flipped to the air Oh My God! And asked got to protect all those cars that were in the accident.. I hope that everyone servived that accident.. I am still thanking God that it was not us because we were two or three cars infront of the accident.. that is why I posted the other post 60 things to be thankful in life because we never know when its our turn to live this earth..

Here are 60 things to be grateful for in our lives:

FOUND THIS AND THOUGHT YOU GUYS MIGHT LIKE IT...

1. Your parents - For giving birth to you. Because if there is no them, there will not be you.

2. Your family – For being your closest kin in the world

3. Your friends – For being your companions in life
4. Sense of sight – For letting you see the colors of life

5. Sense of hearing - For letting you hear trickle of rain, the voices of your loved ones, and the harmonious chords of music

6. Sense of touch - For letting you feel the texture of your clothes, the breeze of the wind, the hands of your loved ones

7. Sense of smell – For letting you smell scented candles, perfumes, and beautiful flowers in your garden

8. Sense of taste – For letting you savor the sweetness of fruits, the saltiness of seawater, the sourness of pickles, the bitterness of bitter gourd, and the spiciness of chilli

9. Your speech – For giving you the outlet to express yourself

10. Your heart – For pumping blood to all the parts of your body every second since you were born; for giving you the ability to feel

11. Your lungs – For letting you breathe so you can live

12. Your immune system – For fighting viruses that enter your body. For keeping you in the pink of your health so you can do the things you love.

13. Your hands – So you can type on your computer, flip the pages of books, and hold the hands of your loved ones

14. Your legs - For letting you walk, run, swim, play the sports you love, and curl up in the comfort of your seat

15. Your mind - For the ability to think, to store memories, and to create new solutions

16. Your good health – For enabling you to do what you want to do and for what you’re about to do in the future

17. Your school - For providing a environment conducive to learning and growing

18. Your teachers – For their dedication and for passing down knowledge to you

19. Tears – For helping you express your deepest emotions

20. Disappointment - So you know the things that matter to you most

21. Fears – So you know your opportunities for growth

22. Pain – For you to become a stronger person

23. Sadness – For you to appreciate the spectrum of human emotions

24. Happiness – For you to soak in the beauty of life

25. The Sun - For bringing in light and beauty to this world

26. Sunset – For a beautiful sight to end the day

27. Moon and Stars - For brightening up our night sky

28. Sunrise - For a beautiful sight to start the morning

29. Rain – For cooling you when it gets too warm and for making it comfy to sleep in on weekends

30. Snow – For making winter even more beautiful

31. Rainbows – For a beautiful sight to look forward to after rain

32. Oxygen - For making life possible

33. The earth – For creating the environment for life to begin

34. Mother nature - For covering our world in beauty

35. Animals – For adding to the diversity of life

36. Internet - For connecting you and me despite the physical space between us

37. Transport - For making it easier to commute from one place to another

38. Mobile phones – For making it easy to stay in touch with others

39. Computers – For making our lives more effective and efficient

40. Technology – For making impossible things possible

41. Movies – For providing a source of entertainment

42. Books – For adding wisdom into your life

43. Blogs – For connecting you with other like-minded people

44. Shoes – For protecting your feet when you are out

45. Time – For a system to organize yourself and keep track of activities

46. Your job – For giving you a source of living and for being a medium where you can add value to the world

47. Music - For lifting your spirits when you’re down and for filling your life with more love

48. Your bed - For you to sleep comfortably in every night

49. Your home - For a place you can call home

50. Your soul mate – For being the one who understands everything you’re going through

51. Your best friends – For being there for you whenever you need them

52. Your enemies – For helping you uncover your blind spots so you can become a better person

53. Kind strangers – For brightening up your days when you least expect it

54. Your mistakes - For helping you to improve and become better

55. Heartbreaks - For helping you mature and become a better person

56. Laughter - For serenading your life with joy

57. Love - For letting you feel what it means to truly be alive

58. Life’s challenges - For helping you grow and become who you are

59. Life - For giving you the chance to experience all that you’re experiencing, and will be experiencing in time to come
and last but not least… #60:
You.
For being who you are and touching the world with your presence. For being alive and reading this post. For giving me the chance to touch your life and fulfill my purpose to help others. You are the reason I live. Thank you.

Go for it!!!

In 20 years,
you will be more disappointed
by what you did'nt do
than by what you did.

Growing Pains

I just went through one of the scariest moments of my life:


According to my mom (I didn't see because I was getting dressed in my room), my son was walking with a vase, which he always messes with (although he's not supposed to have it). He fell and with the vase in hand and hit his mouth on it. I heard him cry and I tried to grab my robe as quickly as possible (because we mothers and fathers know that cry when our child is hurt) and started for the door but my mom opened it before I did. She said "He bit his tongue" before I could ask what happened. She rushed into the bathroom and my son reached for me...that's when I noticed the blood. There was so much wine colored blood that I couldn't said anything else except "Oh s**t" as I grabbed him and rinsed his mouth with water. At that point, I could not see just how deep the bite was but I knew it had to have been significant damage with that amount of blood. His face was covered in blood, snot, and tears. My little baby. I couldn't help but cry myself while trying to tell him that everything will be okay. At one point I grew too weak to stand and sat on the bathroom floor with him as I rocked him and placed a towel in his mouth to try to stop the bleeding. He lied against my chest and started drifting off to sleep, with random outbursts here and there. I changed his clothes and took him to the Emergency Room to see how deep his cut was.


The doctor told me that although the cut was deep, there was nothing they could do about it because interfering with the tongue's natural healing process could increase the chances of infection. He prescribed my son antibiotics and I purchased pain reliever from the pharmacy; the whole time, replaying the moment that I saw the blood pour from his mouth and into the sink over and over again.


Nothing can prepare a parent for moments like this. I hate that he had to experience that type of pain at such a young age. I've never seen anyone with a bite so deep. It looked as if his tongue had a mouth of its own. I know how it feels when you're talking while chewing gum and accidentally bite your tongue so I'm sure what he went through was nothing nice.


 I love my son more than I love myself and all I wanted was to take his pain away from him. This just makes me realize that I can't protect him from everything, not matter how badly I want to. He is only 16 months old so I know that I have a lifetime of more bumps, scrapes, bruises and everything else. I'm not equipped for this type of stuff!!!!! At least I thought I wasn't but even through the tears I still managed to pack his bag and get him to the ER in a timely (and safe) manner.


He is currently sleeping off his eventful day. I am currently trying to calm myself and not think about the blood.


As one of the nurses said to me "It's all growing pains." I couldn't have put it better myself.

Last three Assignments

Classes will be over next week and I have three more assignments, i need to finish, two for this wed and one for next monday. Oh and study for a final. Im so over it by now, im ready for the next quarter. I am feeling really lazy to get started on the two assignments for this week. I think ill do them tuesday, i need one more day of rest so that i can get motivated to get started. I hope everyone had a great weekend and now is ready to finish there last assignments for this quarter!

Who runs the world??

This is a response to Beyonce's new song "Girls (Who Run The World)."




Do you agree with her??

so, i need advice...
im in a relationship that im not sure i should be in. When things are good, they are good, but when they are bad, oh man are they bad. just yesterday i was trying to do homework but ended up arguing for over two hours. i dont know what to do anymore. it seems as though things start to get better and then they end up getting worse.

help!

our world of words...

“Silent” and “listen” are spelled with the same letters . . . maybe at times we should be silent and just listen what others have to say....

the I and the O, the 1 and the zero

There are two ways to be:  Tannen nails them in her video.  

1. to communicate to find similarities
2. to communicate to find distinctions

In the last century, women arose with the cry for equality.  However, equality (ironically) tended to mean equally able to fight within communication style #2.  In that style, some will win and some will lose. Some winners will be women, some will be men - and some losers will come from each sex.
What we miss in the "fight for equality" is the fight for the other form of communication:  that template wherein we discover our similarities.  
When a person is a sexist or racist or ageist, that person is looking at superficial distinctions and the history - or geology - within the persons who embody that distinction.
So, too, when a person calls others sexists or racists or ageists, one is enhancing and underscoring surgface distinctions.  
Go beyond.  Do not hold yourself back by calling people (who may deserve to be called names) by the names they deserve to be called.  That just keeps you in style #2.  
We all know Einstein's saying by now:  "You cannot solve a problem on the same level at which the problem was created.:  So let's not just parrot the line:  Go beyond.
We will become equal when BOTH communication styles (1 and 2 above) are understood as our templates and when we use the right one at the right time. 
"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of in your philosophy." ~ Hamlet.
Look at the magic of I and O, of 1 and zero:   1 leads to 2,3,4 .... etc.  Zero is no-number:  Absence of counting. 

FINAL: print screen key and Microsoft Paint

do a "Print screen" for the final evidence of .  Find the Print Screen key on upper R.H. corner of your keyboard (or "snipit" in Windows 7).  Then open MSPaint (or any graphic program) and PASTE - what was captured in the printscreen keystroke will be pasted.  then you can cut or edit or highlight.   here is a printscreen:  a video I just embedded.  To save ink I just cut off the part of it with my name and date on it.

Michelle Rhee in 2011

PAIN

I know by reading posts, that a lot of us are feeling some sort of pain. Just remember...

Pain is temporary, it may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year. But eventually, it will subside and something will take its place. If I quit however, that lasts forever. That surrender, even the smallest act of giving up, stays with me forever.
~N.A.

Never Satisfied

As much as we want to prevent racism, it still exists. Not only racism but inequality also. We fight for equality but when we are treated equally to other races, genders and other social classes, do we not complain? We as human beings are never satisfied with anything. We complain how broke we are, and when we come into some money, it's never enough. If it's not about money, it's about school, work, friends, family, pets, weight, age, car, the list goes on and on. Have you ever wondered y we are never satisfied? Something happened 2day that really irritated me. I have a friend who is the district manager for a company and she brings home $7k a month..NET!!! She called me 2day venting how broke she is. R U SERIOUS?? I asked y she was so broke, she sd its cuz of the new rent that her and her bf are paying on a home. They pay $2500 on rent for a house. I would think for that much, they should've just bought a home...but anyways, i asked y she moved in that house without thinking about all the bills they have. she sd she was tired of living in an apt. B4 living in this house, her and her bf lived in a 3 bd apt paying $1800. The apt was a nice size apt. She complained about her SUV she had and how much gas is costing her. She complained about how she gained weight by living with her bf. She complained about how she is assumed of having money becuz she is white. She complained that the guys get paid more than she does at her job. Now, she moved to a house cuz she was tired of an apt. She got a hyundai sonata cuz she was tired of high gas price. She started going to the gym and lost about 25lbs cuz she complained about her weight. She complained about how the men in her position is getting paid more than her so she got a raise so she brings home $7500 a month. She has no credit card bills, so thats one thing she isnt paying. IS SHE SATISFIED? nope....all she did on the phone was complain. WHY??? I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!! how come we are NEVER satisfied? If we're not complaining about one thing, it's something. I jus had this irritating convo with my friend and thought i would share with you guys. We all complain about every little thing. have you ever wondered y we do that? We all know life is unfair. We all know things never go the way we want. We all know we cant have our cake and eat it too. We know nothing is perfect....so, y do we complain so much? hmmmm...jus a thought...

Loss

I have been dealing with so much loss in my life the past month and I have been holding all my pain in because I have so much to do with work and school and I feel like I can't let it all out because it will be too much to deal with but this past week I broke down. Over a month ago my grandmother died on my mom's side. Then a couple weeks later my other grandmother died. Then this past week my cousin who is 15 and lives out of state was riding his bike and he was hit by a truck and after being in a coma he passed. I am having such a hard time with this feeling of loss. I don't know how to deal with it. We've talked about loss and faith in our circles and I felt so strong then and now I feel so weak. I know my grandmothers were older and lived a long life but I can't understand losing my cousin who was so young. Also I was so hysterical that I couldn't even make it out of bed since I found out Wednesday and I missed my classes Thursday and now I feel like I am behind. I'm supposed to keep everything together( school, work, family, relationships) but I feel like I am doing such a bad job. I don't know, I think I am rambling but thank you to those who read this, I think I needed to vent what I feel like I can't say out loud.

FIRST BOOK!!

I just wanted to let everyone know that I purchased my first book. I'm not much of book person but when I picked up this book I was literally laughing out loud in Target. Its entitled "shit my dad says".

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

Walking books

We each have a story to tell. Some happy and some sad, but all very interesting..

I am reminiscing to the time i went to my first concert =) It was epic!!! Good times..

Summer Plans?

I know it is a little early to start getting excited for summer especially with all the papers/projects/finals coming up but I was trying to write down everything I wanted to do this summer. Last summer was such a bore for me, I worked all summer and no play :(. I will have my car paid of and my fine so my bills will be significantly lower so I do not have to work like crazy as I am doing now. I really want to enjoy my summer. I plan to go to the beach, work out, spend time with friends, plan a trip to Vegas.....Does anyone have any plans for their summer or suggestions on fun activities?

Waiting for Superman

Thank you for showing this film. It has a lot of important information that is fundamental for my career. Children have the right to have a good education becasue they are the future of this country, but it looks like the education system has not realized that. I wondered what is the future like to be?

Field Trip

Hello everybody!!
On sunday i went to the Museum of Tolerance, it has a good exhibition about holocaust. It was a great expereince because it remind me that prejudice, racism and stereotypes can lead to the mass murder of a group of people. Even though this happened many years ago, the world is still full of racism. We need to learn from history instead of making the same mistakes again.

Paper#5

Hope everyone does good.. this paper was kind of difficult for me to write and i still feel i didnt really answer the question correctly.. did anyone have difficulties writing it

Any Ideas?

Recently I have been waking up with headaches which is something that is not normal for me. Does this happen to anyone? or does anyone know any solutions are causes to this problem? (and no I have not gone out drinking the night before).

RIP BradleyNowell

GEt away Weekend

This quarter has been real tough for me I have been going through rough times but Im glad things are looking better for me and my son. So this weekend I decided to get away from everything and go camping with my son and a few family members... Can't wait :-)

Wednesday Night Blues

I just found out that my ex-bestfriend got accepted to USC. She has also been accepted to UCLA and UC Santa Barbara. I am extrememly happy for her. Never did I have a doubt in my mind that she wouldn't get into any of these schools. In my opinion, I don't know anyone else who derserves it more.

As I mentioned, we are no longer best friends, not even friends for that matter. We're only co-workers now. We stopped talking to each other completely but when we do, it is only work related. And each time we do, it is so obvious how fake we are with each other.

I called her a little while ago to congratulate her and let her know how happy I am for her. It was something I wanted to do, after all, she was a very close friend of mine. But even that conversation felt awkward. She didn't seem excited to hear from me. It seemed like she didn't appreciate the call at all. And now I feel sad. 

I'm a little bummed that my call wasn't recieved the way I thought it would be. And I just miss my friend. We had a special friendship that I never thought would end so abruptly. We got along so well, we were practically inseperable. But things always happen for a reason and that is what keeps me going. I called her because it was something I wanted to do. How she responds to my call is really out of my control. I know I did what I felt was right.... but then why do I still feel sad??

anyways... I'm done venting. Thanks for listening. Hope everyone has a good night!

The reason

“Part of the reason that men seem so much less loving than women is that men's behavior is measured with a feminine ruler.”

Francesca M. Cancian quotes

Appointment Meeting!

Individual meeting was a good way to interact with Professor. It allowed me to ask questions that I may have probably waited to ask at the end of class, or not at all!

Playtime

A child reminds us that playtime is an essential part of our daily routine.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

This is one of my favorite quotes... sometimes we forget that we all need some playtime :)

Ima be a boss!!!

Control Informal...... class exercise was really fun I always knew Ima be a boss!!!

Erykah Badu - Window Seat

Erykah Badu expresses her political views through the art of music...

"Never give up! "

new to blog!

oh man!
ive been on here for at least an hour adding comments to different posts, and not one of them shows up! i thought writing in the comment box and clicking post meant my comment would be added, but i guess not.

will someone please write some dummy proof instructions on here for me? (-_-)


thanks!

Finally...

Finally... I am feeling like things are falling in their place.. my fiancè finally got a job (thanks to a classmate), I am in good heath passed my Biology class that I took at Rio Hondo, and got a good grade on this pass essay.. Thank God!.. and just everything feels good.. I hope things stay like this.. I haven't had such a good feeling... its been a while..

MemorialWeekend

I couldn't be happier for this long weekend.. it happens to be right before finals so it gives me a time to breathe... sort of... Does anyone have any plans?

Men Dancing very funny!!!

A new view on education

When I was thinking about my final paper I thought about how different this class has been from the majority of my other classes here at CSULA. While I feel like I have had a great education here this was the first time a professor really wanted to here what we think! I love the freedom that we have been given, but at the same time I think I've learned more about real life writing than ever before. The past 10 or so weeks have taught me that education can be what we make it!

Long Day

It's days like this were I wish I was not behind a desk. People drive me crazy at work. I hope my day gets better

Versus

Money is paper; igniting will burn.
Lover is trash; fillness will spill.
Love is dust; brush off will fly.
Life is ephemeron; struggle will prolong.

TTh AFTERNOON (not AM) next week: mini-meetings

Afternoon people:  Your papers are still due on Thursday - you can leave them at my office door any time PRIOR TO 4:10pm ON Thursday. This week, you only see me on ONE day, not TWO. You come to see me in 2s or 3s.  here are your times:  

All this blogging about nostalgia...

The last circle we had in class..

This video reminded me of the discussion we had about religion!

SOC 210B with Professor Mohammed Abdelhamid

For those who have SOC 210B this quarter with Professor Mohammed:

Today, I left before the professor arrived so I was not able to get the notes we need for the next quiz. I was wondering if anyone who is in the class could be so kind and send me the notes please.
And is there a quiz this Wednesday? Thanks for your help, I appreciate it very much.

my email: g_leonardo7@yahoo.com

I am a little bummed out because I recently found out I was not accepted into the MSW program at USC or CSULA. Actually, I was put on the waiting list which means that when a person who was accepted decides not to attend, I will be considered. Maybe I still have a chance but I can't help wondering why I did not get officially accepted. My GPA is high and my recommendations are good. I am not giving up, if I don't get in through the waiting list, I am going to reapply next year. Did anyone else apply to graduate school?

No Time?

I don't know if anyone else is feeling this way but I feel as if there is not enough time in the day to accomplish everything. I feel as if all of my responsibilities I have are all creeping up on me and I go to sleep with a to do list in my head and I wake up exhausted. Maybe it's the expectations I have on myself that I feel like I need to do everything. Also, the finals weeks before the end of the quarter are always stressful. A part of me wonders if all this worry and stress is even worth it? I wish my life was more simple and relaxed, but I know that I need to change in order to do so. Is anyone else having this problem?

Bring Me to Life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YxaaGgTQYM

UFO!!!

this is in interested video about UFO's.

Motivating Quote

Let others lead small lives, but not you.

Let others argue over small things, but not you.

Let others cry over small hurts, but not you.

Let others leave their future in someone else's hands but not you.

-Jim Rohn

sessions this week: MW and TTh AM classes

Be on time! at 3 minutes to classtime, I start a movie that is 111 minutes long.
I will have papers for you. They have a new "slip" in your "folder". Keep the slip, keep the folder, plan to write your ACTUAL NAME on the final, final paper - and wrap it up with your folder and your new little slip. That is due the week of Memorial Day, Wed., or Thur.
TuTh PM class - CLICK HERE for your mini-meetings this week, Tues and Thurs. 
And remember it is too late to hand in late papers - unless I have made a specific "contract" or had a specific discussion with you. 

LOVE THIS QUOTE!!

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” - Maya Angelou

that scene is coming back...

i have good internet right now so i figured to take advantage of it and start commenting on posts and i wanted to post something, but didn't know of what. i was listening to pandora the other day and this song came up and it blew my mind. i couldn't believe i forgot about this song. it really brought me back to being 16 and partying with my cousin and his friends while i was staying with him. i really miss those simple days of being young and reckless...great memories=)

oh and I wanted to share this too.. incase anyone is interested in Māori (from New Zealand) culture. When I studied abroad, I got really involved, and this was my performance with the University's Māori Student Association. Can't really see me, and the quality is pretty bad... but enjoy anyway.

Thursday AM

I have been meaning to post this since last week, but just kept forgetting.

I think the tuesday/thursday AM class has such great discussions. I think each and every person has the most amazing stories and perspectives on the world. Everyone says something I completely respect, even if I don't completely agree, I totally understand what they are saying. I'm so glad we're all so open and can say anything to each other. It's a great balance of different personality types and respect that the circles are always such a positive experience for me.

Last week's discussion was particularly moving. Everyone said such touching things that I left the class feeling like I saw the world differently. I know I tend to get too emotional about things, but I think I prefer that to not being moved by the beautiful and heart-breaking things people were revealing. I want to thank my classmates for being fantastic, thoughtful, caring and respectful people. You have all helped to remind me how tragic the world can be, but that love and hope can overcome it. I know I couldn't find this kind of group of people at a "Better" more expensive school, so thank goodness for CSULA bringing us together.

With all of its sweetness and sadness, Life is Beautiful!

“…I have lost myself in the sea many times, with my ear full of freshly cut flowers, with my tongue full of love and agony. I have lost myself in the sea many times, as I lose myself in the hearts of certain children. As I lose myself in the hearts of certain children, I have lost myself in the sea many times. Ignorant of the water, I go seeking a death full of light to consume me…”

Lorca

Rest

You spend 90% of your adult life hoping for a long rest and the last 10% trying to convince the Lord that you're actually not that tired. ~Robert Brault

Nice catch!!!!

So i guess the world did not end after all!! yay!! for those who become traumatized by people predictions. ont believe everything people say.

Love exists

The day I found love was recently in a hospital. It was when I watched a Wife hold her Husband’s dying body deeply in her arms. The look on her face expressed the realization that few minutes remained before her love would be taken away from her. As she wept, I felt her pain overwhelm me. I could practically feel her Husbands pulse growing weaker, dimmer until finally his last breath occurred. Before her Husband died, I had the opportunity to speak to her numerous times. Both her Husband and my Grandfather were dying and before my Grandfather was brought home, I got to know her very well. She told me her life story with the man she loved so deeply and how she married her sweet heart. How they traveled the world together- experiencing the most incredible adventures through Australia, Europe, Africa and much more. She told me of their continuous love affair that lasted an entire lifetime. I knew she spoke of no ordinary love. Instead she described a love so rare, that it could only be imagined to most. I knew it was real when I saw her Husband look into her eyes and his eyes said I love you, I love you and I love you until he was gone. To know a love like that exists in the world is incredible. When you find love like that, you definitely know it and hold on to it as tight as possible. It was nice to see her be strong enough to comfort him the whole way. When I asked her what she is going to do without him, she replied, “I am going to continue living my life as if he never died.” I took that as she was going to continue living as happy as before and to be thankful for all the memories she did have with him.

Just a moment I will remember for the rest of my life. 

I wonder how many more moments I will have like this where it feels like I am brought back to the present and living in it completely. Because of her, I will try to live more presently and appreciate the beauty and people all around me. 

Don't get caught up in all the crap. :) Remember theres life all around that needs to be lived. If that makes sense. Anyway, I hope you all are having an amazing day and that  you all find love like this...if you haven't already. 

Confronting the Horrors of the World

at at frame 5:00 - he really starts talking of verstehen

In the end . . .

I beleive the rapture will take place, judgement day will come, and the world will end . . . just not today. Not for all of us, anyway. Unfortunately, some people will not see another day and many more will see their first day ever. However, I am intrigued by the notion of what if this really was your "last day". I've had that on my mind in the last day or so. Oddly enough, I can't seem to think of anything that I would like to do or stop doing before my "last day". My life is far from perfect and there are many things I have yet to experiance but all the things that I have wanted to do, for the most part, I have done. I have seen first hand the beauty of mankind, the ugliness of humanity, the joys of losing, the bitterness of gaining, lived life, and managed to survive. Taking that into account, I would not change a thing and live my "last day" like I have lived all the others - to the best of my ability.

What would you do?

Halftime Show

D. Rose

For attractive Lips...

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you will never walk alone. People, even more than things have to be restored. Renewed. Revived. Reclaimed. And redeemed; never throw out anyone." -Audrey Hepburn

Dont Know What to Believe!

So for a couple of days now I been thinking if the world is going to end tomorrow. At the beginning I was like no its just something religion is trying to make us believe so we can be more close to God and attend church more. But now they are saying how they have proof in the Bible and all.. I'm the type of person that doesn't believe anything till I see proof, but after all those this the Bible said I don't know what to think.. Many people are saying no its not going to happen, but what if it does? I guess if the world ends tomorrow we won't have to worry about finals.. ha ha..

Aint this the truth.....tisk tisk

reach out to others.....what goes around comes around

A Glass of Milk......... One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry. He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water.

She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked, "How much do I owe you?"

"You don't owe me anything," she replied. "Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness."

He said..... "Then I thank you from my heart." As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Year's later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation. When he heard the nameof the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room.

Dressed in his doctor's gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case.

After a long struggle, the battle was won. Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval.

He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill.

She read these words.....

"Paid in full with one glass of milk"

(Signed)
Dr. Howard Kelly

Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: "Thank You, God, that Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands."

Curious

First of all, R.I.P Macho Man...
I know it may not be that serious to some, but he was one of my favorite wrestlers. Life is a trip, one day you're here and the next you're gone.

So, I'm very curious to know why everybody chose their name for the blog.. Does it have a significant meaning to it?? Some of you have interesting names.. =)

Well I just received a letter from the CSULA MSW program letting me know I have not been accepted for fall 2011. I got the same letter from USC last month. Well actually they said I am on the waiting list which does not sound too promising. Although I am disappointed, I can move on and do other things like find a job (I graduate in 2 weeks). I was really hoping to get into to the program, at least at CSULA. I have not lost hope. I am going to apply for 2012. I just can't help to wonder why I did not get in though. My GPA is good, my recommendations where excellent, and I devote a lot of my time to community service. Maybe it was my statement of purpose. I was not to thrilled with it when I submitted it even though I worked on it day and night for a month. I remember talking to a USC representative at an information session for the MSW program and he said it took him one year to write his letter and he got in. So I guess I have to put more time into my letter next time. Anyway, I am just thinking out loud.

I WONDER WHY...

So I recently met this guy..we've been talkin for about a week now.. hes a very cool person,handsome, very nice and super sweet.. but that's the problem .. i feel like he's too nice.. He's always complimenting me and being wayyy to nice, almost to the point where i feel like he's a pushover. We hung out once and since he doesnt have a car right now i had to pick him up, i asked where he wanted to go and he said, "i dont know wherever you want" i said, "i dont mind, i dont know this area" than hes like wherever, "las mujeres mandan" which is pretty much women rule... like what we say goes.. its nice to be in charge too. but like we were talkin about in class yesterday its nice for both people to have a say. It's like i feel like i want him to take initiative too. he tells me everyday how pretty i am, how great i am , and all this stuff and although it's nice to hear how do u tell someone when its just to much without being rude, and how do you tell him to have his own opinion on things without sounding rude as well? I want him to know he doesnt always have to agree with me and that he is too nice! i wonder why that happens, although we dont want a guy to be a jerk, when there too nice , we think something is wrong with them. what should i do or how can i tell this guy without hurting him? I still want to talk to him and hang out, but I want him to know how i feel.

Getting California out of debt

One of my proffesor's read in the L.A Times, that if families who make over a $100,000 a year, if they were to increase their taxes 1%, California would not be in debt. It sounds good, but is it fair???

remaining schedule

final 3.5 page MAX, with all three References on bottom of page 4

Wow, it is crunch time!!

Do any of you feel the pressure?? Wow, we are almost done with lectures and sure have plenty of papers do and to top it off, we have to study for finals. (my hair is falling off ) (laughing) Isn't life great? Let the madness begin

Mr. Blue Sky

How beautiful is this?

woman poised to take over a significant world role

and look how interesting and beyond-gender roles she looks http://www.nytimes.com/2011/05/19/world/europe/19iht-profile.html?_r=1

added later:  opps:  http://www.france24.com/en/20110512-sarkozy-party-scandal-tapie-affair-lagarde-credit-lyonnais-prosecutor-france#

Marriages in US lasting longer! surprise change

http://www.washingtonpost.com/local/number-of-long-lasting-marriages-in-us-has-risen-census-bureau-reports/2011/05/18/AFO8dW6G_story.html?hpid=z4 

Resources - for Non-Boilerplate Sociology

THREE THINKERS:
MARX:  Control of production - exploitation of the controllers over the (victim) controlled
DURKHEIM:  Belonging, shared symbols - 2 forms, Mechanical (oneness) Organic (diverse organs)
WEBER:  The March of History led from the Age of Enchantment to the Iron Cage.  Bureaucracy is the big cage.  Capitalism was the result of a new way of thinking.

THREE VIDEOS:
ONE:  "Civilization: Is the West History" - two ways of being (mechanical and organic) one emerged from a new WAY OF THINKING
TWO:  Gender "He Said, She Said" by Deborah Tannen - two communication style from humans both wanting the same thing (both want group membership and a sense of belonging)
THREE:  Being Human video (next week)

YOUR CHALLENGE
IN final paper - can you use these tools to think from, rather than regurgitate someone else's philosophy?  Does it help to open your mind to see how you thought about yourself versus how you were (perhaps trained to) think about others?  Can you discover any new way of THOUGHT that would ease you out of Weber's Iron Cage?

Your a Pimp?

Ok so I know this is so random but I havn't talked to anyone about it and I kind of wanted to share with yall. Well this past weekend my friend's dance team had a performance in SD. I went with them and we got hotel rooms and we was just partying having a ball, doing what we do. Of course these two girls on the team, they are a hot mess but they meet these two guys around the hotel and start talkin to them. Well you know I was making my rounds to everyone and met up with them. Now one of the guys was so fine and we started talking exchange numbers; that whole bit. So we talked whole night, he just moved out there 2 weeks ago from the bay and tellin me all about himself. He seemed like a real nice, sweet guy. WELL little did I know we have been talkin these past couple days and he tells me well girl you seem real cool but I need to tell you something and you might not like it but I want to be 100 with you. So then this fool proceeds to tell me how hes a PIMP....like for real a pimp. I was in so much shock, like he look so young and seem so shy I couldn't believe it. He was telling me about how him and his brother were there that night because one of his brother's "girls" was working and they were just doing what they do.I am still in so much disbelief, on one hand Im like this crazy mutha you not wut is so shady and I want to call the cops on them and totally disapprove of what they do and how they treat women and make money off of it. Then on the other hand I believe I have this flaw that always wants to see the good in people and Im here trying to rationalize it like well he was telling me how this is the way to get fast money right now, he did not have the opportunities that other people have to go to college and he sends money home to his younger sisters and brothers and this is only temporary til he can get his stuff together, and he would never mistreat a woman..... WOW I don't even know what to say

Paper #5

Can someone tell me what question 5 was about?

Paper #5

I have been sitting here all day and night trying to figure out which angle I have to approach this next paper from. I really have no idea what my thesis is for Paper #5 and I am running out of time. Blogging has not been helping me get any work done but at least this counts for participation, right?

I need some help!! I know that the paper is about the similiarities or differences between the way we analyze ourselves and others but I'm really not sure what to write. Do we have to use social theories in our papers? Do we have to reference Marx, Weber or Durkheim?

I'M SO LOST!!!!

Please Help Me With This Problem

Okay...so i found out in February that my boyfriend was talking to his eighth grade ex-girlfriend for a whole month without telling me about it. This is how it went down...I suspected something was wrong sometime in the month of January...he works in LA and he said that he was going to pick up his income tax check from H&R Block, which was in LA. I said ok because it was right next to his work. he called me back and said that he was just going to pick it up the next day. so i said ok...no biggie. when he got home he called me and told me that he was going to pick up his check. i told him that why didn't he just stop by on his way home from work. he said because he wasn't thinking about picking it up but then he thought about it and decided that he should. that's when it all started...the suspicion. by the way when he came back from picking up his check he had cut his hair and was dressed to impress. everything was left in good standing...i guess

one day while he was taking a shower someone sent him a text message and i read it. It read "I'm back in LA"...it was from someone with the name Julio...i was like WTF he has no friends named Julio...I wrote the phone number on my school book without him finding out...i was so nervous to find something that i did not want to find out...i had huge butterflies in my stomach...i got home and i dialed the number...a girl answered...i had my sister tell her that she mistakenly dialed the wrong number and asked for her name...name: Cindy Ramirez...OOOOMMMMGGGG...i wanted to punch the freaken wall. I called him back with the excuse that my parents were fighting and i needed to get out of the house...

he was parked outside my house and i went inside his car. i asked that who was Julio. he said it was some guy from work. i said are you sure. he said yes. i told him its not Cindy. he said yes. i said tell me everything. he said that he bumped into her at a check cashing place in LA and exchanged phone numbers to keep in touch. he said that they were talking since the first week of January...i started to cry...he did not seem sympathetic to what i was going through. while i was talking to him he was supposedly reading a magazine and playing with his phone...he had a grin on his face...he made it seem like it was no big deal. he said that he hid it from me because i would not let him have a friend that was a girl. he said that they were talking during the night when he left my house...by the way during that month he was leaving early from my house because he said he was tired and wanted to sleep early...i viewed the phone bill and i showed that they were talking for hours during the night almost everyday. they were also texting regularly. on his break from work he called her instead of me...the next day i called him and told him that he needed to stop talking to her if he wanted to be with me. he said that he was not going to stop talking to her and that i needed to grow up because he is going to have friends no matter what i say...i stood with him and told him that he needed to stop talking to her...he agreed

a week passed...we went bowling and he said that he found a phone at his job... he said that we should keep it just in case we lose one of ours...i said no because it was a tmobile phone and we have verizion. he said that he had to go to the restroom since he ate a lot before we went bowling...i said ok...something was not right...i said give me the phone while we were still at the bowling alley he said ok i will give it to you tomorrow cuz its at my house... i said no lets go get it now...we showed up at his house and i told him give me the phone...he pulled the phone out of his front pants pocket...WTF again...the phone was locked so i told him to give me the password so he did... i dialed my own phone number and the dam phone worked...WTF...i could not take it any more...this mother was still talking to her behind my back after i told him not to...he said that he was sooooo sorry and that he did not want to do anything with her...they were just friends...i stood with him

two weeks after this ordeal i calmly told him to tell me everything...he said that he went out with her four times after work to Jack in the Box...that just broke my weak heart even more...by the way she is married and has a child...she shouldn't be talking to other men and also hiding it from her husband. i don't know what to think anymore...

this situation made me feel less of a woman. i felt ugly, fat and not loved at all. i feel so betrayed by him. i thought everything was perfect with us. we were talking about getting married pretty soon. this experience had me think twice about marriage. i wanted to know how she looked to see how pretty she was...i finally saw her today at our school in the library...that what made me do this blog...she was pretty cute. decent sized body...i do not feel good. i feel that there is more to the story. i don't understand why he did this...(crying)...he hurt me so much...i feel that he only tells me what i want to hear now... he says that it is a mistake that he did and that it will never happen again...idk hopefully because i love him so much i come to realize that he is my everything and i will not hurt him like he did to me...i hold a huge grudge about this...i love him so much and i feel that he does not understand where i am coming from...he says that i need to just forget about it and be happy and think about our future...i see him changing his character...he is more attentive to my needs and come straight home after work...he sacrified going to his moms house for me because he knows that i will start thinking that he is doing something bad...we moved in together three weeks ago and it is going smoothly...although i sometimes get worrried about what he is doing when he is not with me...he has always treated me like his queen... he does everything that i tell him to do...when he gets out of work he calls me and now he also shows me his hours worked for the week. i appreciate everything that he is doing to make me realize that he is trying to make things work for the sake of our relationship...

how can i forget about what happened? what do you guys think? how do i move on and be happy with him without thinking constantly about it? Please Help!

Confused

Can someone Explain the question to me? I think I might have written it wrong.

California Weather

sooo unpredictable...can it be global warming?! lol... can't go to sleep since i'm doing hw right now and realized that its the middle of may and we have rain... i'm just wondering how summer is going to be

Corn is part of the reason why we are overweight

Last quarter I had a professor who told me "Corn is the cause of obesity" I did not believe her so I asked "why". She told me to look at the products I consumed and read what ingredients it contains. She told me more than half of them will have corn syrup. I went on to watch a few documentaries that emphasized the fact that this starch was the reason for our growing obesity population. I asked my mom what do cows eat . . she said "grass" . . I told her guess what American cows eat? . . CORN!! . . Many of the animals that we consume are feed CORN . . Next time you make dinner stop and look at the ingredients in the box and you will be amazed at the weird hard to pronounce ingredients that make up our food sources . . and am pretty sure CORN Syrup will be one of the first ingredient.

Mind vs. Matter

I am starting feel like there is a real disconnect between my intellectual understanding of sociological concepts and how they apply to my day to day life. Sometimes I think I am theorizing from a place that is too abstract and I miss important corporeal details. Do you ever feel like cerebral concepts get in the way of your practical social understanding? How do you apply sociological concepts to your life in a practical sense?

Lonely...

This past year has been extremely tough on me emotionally. I knew that having a child would change my life, but I never imagined that I would lose my social life COMPLETELY. I literally have ONE friend now. Every "friend" I had before I got pregnant has totally disappeared. Even my two "best friends" have become even closer with one another and alienated me. I live in between the two of them (both live about 7 blocks away from me) but they pass up my house to get to one another. I am not expecting anyone to change their lives because mine has but it would be nice if they would acknowledge the fact that I have a child.  I don't even get a "Hello" text message.

Since coming to CSULA, I have not made a single friend. It's hard to meet new people when I only go to school and come straight home. It is nearly impossible for me to join a club because I have my son and I can only leave him with his grandmother for so long. Although I do have this wonderful child and I am in a relationship, there is nothing like having that bond with another person outside of family. Whenever I am feeling frustrated or angry or even happy, I can tell my son's father but it's just not the same. And I can't tell my son about my day because he could care less at his age. I speak to some people in class but it never goes outside of the classroom.

I wish I could go back to elementary when you can just walk up to someone and ask "Would you be my friend?" and you would be friends with them AT LEAST for the rest of the school year. Why can't things be simple like they were when we were kids? Now, I feel like once I tell someone that I'm a mother, they automatically judge me and count out all possibilities of us having any further conversations. I think I'm a good person and I do have an identity outside of motherhood. I just wish I had someone to hang out with, have lunch with, and do homework with BESIDES my son's father because I don't want us to get on each other's nerves.

Even though I am never actually alone, I feel lonely a lot of the time....

What are we missing?

This is Joshua Bell, one of the greatest musicians in the world. However, only one person truly stopped to listen.

The questions raised:
Do we perceive beauty in a common place environment at an inappropriate hour?
Do we stop to appreciate it?
Do we recognize talent in an unexpected context?

If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world, playing some of the finest music ever written....... How many other things are we missing?

(I took this from the long now blog.)

Choreo Cookies

I was not feeling too hot and watching videos of my old dance team made me feel better, just thought I share with everybody. I encourage yall to watch their other videos.

One Bad Grade

I have gotten one low grade on one of my essays and it has brought my overall grade down dramatically. If it was not for this low score, I would be in an A range, but now I am working my hardest just to keep a B average. I wish our lowest grade could be dropped or their was a makeup essay to replace that grade, becuase as much as I try to just let it go, I can not stop thinking about how this one score is affecting my overall grade in the class.

...question..love catergory

Can someone really just fall in love with the idea of love and just compensate for the person they are with.... They just want that passionate love and companionship,they are willing to compromise and change what is really there....and when they move on so quickly to another passionate love did they ever really love their ex....or was it just the passion high?

Do they think this is love? do they think that is how love work.....

Or am i the one that has love confused?

....sigh

Amazing Weekend

This weekend I went up to Berkeley because my brother was graduating from UC Berkeley and it was the best weekend I have had in such along time. I loved the whole environment over there that I am even considering moving up there after graduating which will be next year :-)

Waiting for Superman

someone was going to bring in a copy - was it YOU?

health care COSTS

do not go down and rationing begins with overweight women
help those U know who are overweight to begin a diet and exercise program now. 

Thursday am circle quotation:

I found this version online-

I sought my soul, my soul I did not see.
I sought my God, but he eluded me.
I sought my brother and I found all three.

Keep the hope up...

“Man can live about forty days without food, about three days without water, about eight minutes without air, but only for one second without hope"

frustrated

I am starting my paper tonight, i have a few papers in other classes due on Wednesday. Although this paper is the shortest to write, it is harder than my other ones. Okay I'm going to take a deep breath, and try to do my best. I have so much going on outside of school that when I leave campus school becomes secondary, and my family and all their needs, and my obligations are primary. Word of advise to all of you young adults, Finish school first before starting a family". At this very moment I could have been spending quality time with my kids, but instead I am studying. If im not at school I am at work or taking the kids to their sport practices. I have two more quarters left, I feel burned out, tired, and my energy level is low.

Inspiration to think outside the box.

Uncommon Deeds

Charles Ghigna

The secret to success is not
To do as everyone;
Success is often measured by
What others haven't done.

And now??

Have you ever wanted something so bad...like obsessed over it? And when you got it, you did'nt like it as much as you thought you would?

Whats up with that?

"If you don't come in first place, then you're in last place."

I am very passionate about sports, especially my hometown teams. When an athlete makes six figures TO PLAY A SPORT, I am sorry but no broken/depression is gonna get me down. I know I am little late about this but now I know how it feels to be a Yankee fan and the ownership invests so much money into the team and they do not win. Everyone not named Kobe or Lamar needs to go!! Get a bag of basketballs if you have to for a player. I am aware you cannot teach experience but today's league is too young and athletic. The Lakers NEED to get Dwight and possibly and PG.

Now onto my other team..... the dreadful Dodgers. EVERYONE IS EXPENDABLE!! Ok maybe not Kershaw, Kemp or Ethier but anyone else can go. The team STILL does not hit for power, bullpen is sketchy at times and the rotation is inconsistent. Package Loney and/or Boxton for Prince Fielder OR if they want to get risky and send a message to their fans, go out for a David Wright of the Mets. The Mets are broke and need to dump salaries. I am just tired of seeing a terrible product out on the field. LA is the second largest market in this country and they cannot put out a good product?! The damn Angels have a better team (on paper).

Sorry if I bored anyone but I just needed to get this off of my chest!! I am going to start self medicating if my teams do not make changes and win! It's the "what have you done for me lately" approach. You do not produce, someone can fill in your spot and do what you cannot.